Bourbon and Tears

It's a tedious process
Picking it up
Piece by piece
Hoping this glue
Made of bourbon and tears
Holds it all in place

Seems like 
The moment it comes together
It falls apart again
Seems like
The moment I forget her
Someone speaks her name

But it's coming together
It's falling apart
I'll never forget her
Or how I broke my own heart

P.Frias

Purr for me kitten
Claw at my hands
As I pin you down
It'll be a long night
And candles will light the room
A kiss to begin
Let it sink in...for a moment
Just own it
You want this my pet
It shows in how wet
The glass gets when you breathe so hard
Welcome my intrusion
Enjoy this fusion
Of body and soul
And we will be whole
Time and again
Even when you say when
I'll take you
And make you
And I may slightly break you
But never will I relent
In making you mine
And loving your scars
In time, your scars will be stars
And you will be my Sun

P.Frias

Bye bye...

I've never seen a heart so torn
A vibrant soul so dimmed
I've never seen a man so worn
His empty cup once brimmed

An ounce of flesh
A pound of pain
We did not mesh
Though much was gained

And yet I ache for your touch
I cry in vain for your hands
I guess you cared not so much
I've scrapped our future plans

I say goodbye, I say farewell
Fond memories will I keep
And I'll pray my heart to compel
My sad eyes to not weep

P.Frias

The world will break your heart
Of that you can be sure
But Life will bring you comfort
When the shadows fall

My Love will bring you warmth
When night brings its' chill
My arms will bring you peace
When chaos reigns

A trickle of hope is all we need
To see us through the toughest time
A ray of light will wander
Through the darkest veil of despair

Never fret
Never fear
Always hope
Always Love

Yes, the world may break your heart
And the scars will always be
But you are alive and you are Loved
Just smile, just laugh and just be...

P.Frias

"You can kiss me if you want" she said
Her head propped up on her hand
The dark sheets a contrast against her skin
As Moon light streams in through the window
It's 3 steps to her lips
4 to lay my body on hers
And her eyes are jewels
That I need to set in mine
"Hold me tighter" she whispers
As her tongue traces my lips
One hand buried in her hair
The other making ready
It's now and forever
It's oceans and islands
Sunsets and Dawns
It's her heart under glass
Under stone
Under steel
And I hold the key to it all
It's now
It's forever

P.Frias

One day,
I'll feel what I'm supposed to
Laugh instead of cry
Love instead of hate
I'll relate
To the words in books
About fate
I'll smile instead of sigh
And "do" instead of "try"
Not crawl but fly
I'm that guy
Whose dreams seem out of reach
But I'll succeed
So take heed
I don't need
For you to preach
Just watch and I'll teach
That dreams can come true
For me
And for you

P.Frias

Tina...I love you

I am darkness

There is no light in me
Only a fight in me

To be the change
And rearrange
The sight of me

For I long to see 
What eats at me
In my heart

To start I must say
I feel apart
From the rest

And it's best
I say
That you stay away
From what I am

I am darkness

P.Frias

Mom & Pop

I need another picture of you
To carry in my head
The last image is too painful
Of this man who was above me
Standing on my heart
He only relented because he died
And so leaving everything unsaid
Unspoken sorrow
Unanswered love

And you...
You used to be my home
My safe place
My haven from the storms
Of this unforgiving place
I wish you would come back and find me
I'm lost
And the words you spoke to me
Like a river
Ever flowing
Ever changing
Stuck with me
Like a brilliant scar on my soul
I can't apply them
I'm broken
The last look I had of you
As they wheeled you away
Was of your eyes
Like dying stars

P.Frias

A Love story

It was a Love story
Scripted with plenty of emotion
On a tattered screen

And when she sang
It made hearts stop
Her magic touching my soul

Cliches and gushy lines
I love you's and kisses
Beating hearts in a bed
Sweating in satin sheets

It was champagne and roses
Chocolate and pastries
Holding hands on the beach

It was a Love story
The parts were cast
The roles were played

The story is over

P.Frias

Lunchtime

He races to his little one at lunchtime
"Feed the heart not the body"
He says to himself
He looks for those big eyes
Full of recognition
Little arms reaching up to him
This is their time
Time for hugs and kisses
Little hands on his face
A child's laughter
He tries to cram a days worth of Love
Into 1800 seconds
Trying not to think about the time
Yet it ticks off in the back of his mind
He holds him tighter
Another lunchtime is 24 hours away
He needs this moment
This Love
His heart is in his arms
Dressed in little pants
And a tiny shirt
With a gigantic smile
He never thought missing lunchtime
Could break his heart

P.Frias

Close My Eyes

I can't close my eyes
When I do, I feel you
Your fingertips on my face

I can't close my eyes
When I do, I hear you
Your morning voice in my ear

I can't close my eyes
When I do, I taste you
Your cinnamon lips on mine

I can't close my eyes
When I do, I see you
And I'll never see you again

P.Frias

My head hung low
The willow wept
The rose mourned
As I sat beside the water
Her reflection shown as my own
And she said
Look in your heart
It's not as empty as you think
Remember who you are
The things learned
The house you have built
The floors covered in faith
And the ceilings hung with hope
The walls adorned with Love
In my heart I sat
In the midst of a multitude of memories
In the midst of those gone before
And the willow wept for joy
And the rose mourned for none

P.Frias

Follow You

Through the deep and through shadows
Through darkness abounding
Across vast water and sky
Into the bowels of Nevermore
I will follow you

Across time and through Heaven
To the end of all things
To the end of forever
The edge of the eternal
I will follow you

A beacon throughout
A lighthouse of the soul
Your eyes are my guide
Your heart is my compass
Our souls are tethered
I will follow you...

P.Frias

Lets resurrect the past
Rebuild the bridges burned
We'll build this Love to last
With lessons we have learned

Orphaned hearts will be found
Many cares will be bestowed
Upon your head I'll lay the crown
Of precious Love in gold

So run away this day with me
We'll live in this Love true
And all the world will surely see
The vast Love I have for you

P.Frias

There used to be magic
In the sound of falling rain
An enchantment in the air
My brother and I would stare
Into the backyard and watch the sky
Weep for hours into the swimming pool
We'd hear the thunder
We'd see the lightning
The house would tremble
And make the noises houses make in storms
Squeaky doors
Squeaky floors
Rattling panes of glass
The gutters out front would flood
And we'd launch our makeshift boats
Trying to keep up with them as we ran along the sidewalk
Little boys making the big world fit into their imagination
It used to rain a lot back then
So the magic was abundant

We're older now
And the rains of our youth
Seem rarely to fall
And so the magic is lessened
And the enchantment
Well, it's been replaced by reality
Bills and work
Worries and fears
Our children will never know the joy
That our imaginations brought us

There used to be magic
In the sound of falling rain
But the rain falls
No more

P.Frias

-with Ant Frias

Be the wind
That you may breeze by
And blow life into me

Be the gale
That tumbles stone
And shakes foundations

Be the storm
That moves the willows
Of complacency in me

Be a hurricane
That you may uproot me
And relocate my heart

Be the pasture where I graze
The sun that I bask in
The stream I drink from

Be the world to me
Be you

P.Frias

There are secrets you keep
Pain that runs deep
Hurts locked away in the dark

There are nights where you dream
With eyes wide open
Hoping
For a better tomorrow

Memories steal your dreams
Haunting
Paralyzing

Who you should be
Or could be
Is not who you are

But you are a star
A light
A piece of heaven wrapped in fair skin

If I could catch your tears
I'd hide them in my heart
Until they became diamonds
And show you
How precious you really are

Let me in
Invite me into your darkness
Into the warm emptiness of you

Let me lay
Upon the billowy shadows
Of memories
Those long ago words
Brilliant and promising
That now hold no more weight

Let me bask
In the forgotten dreams
And lazy afternoons
Of what never was

It never will be
And we never were

P.Frias

Follow You

Through the deep and  through shadows
Through darkness abounding
Across vast water and sky
Into the bowels of Nevermore
I will follow you

Across time and through Heaven
To the end of all things
To the end of forever
The edge of the eternal
I will follow you

A beacon throughout
A lighthouse of the soul
Your eyes are my guide
Your heart is my compass
Our souls are tethered
I will follow you...

P.Frias

So he hands me this stone filled with light and he says,
"Son, he's shimmering faintly right now. It's your job to fill him with light. But you must do the following:

Love him unconditionally,
Have patience,
Don't be afraid to discipline him,
Always give him what he needs, not what he wants,
Teach him to appreciate what he is given,
Instruct him in manners,
Guide him with wisdom,
Instruct him in the ways of integrity,
Teach him to have faith in a faithless world,
Be his greatest example.

When the day comes, he'll burn as bright as the Sun. And nothing and no one will stop him from shinning."

P.F.

8/31/2013

We are here to feel
To taste life in every way
To feel the heart of another

We are here to Heal
To cry with a broken soul
To feed the hungry

We are here to wander
To tread upon the unmarked path
To go beyond the walls

We are here to find each other
To travel the road
To be in motion

We are here to Love
To Love
To Love

P.Frias

1/7/14

Love

A fire
It burns and rages
Longing and unsatisfied
Needing to give of itself
Wanting to grow
And consume
Growing, growing, growing
It illuminates
It propels me forward
It lifts me up
Complete unto itself
Incomplete without you

P.Frias

1/8/14

Dust and Love

This wasn't our time
It wasn't our world
We didn't have the chance to burn
To consume each night
And blaze forth

There were restrictions
And obligations
There was the reality of life
That dimmed our dreams
This wasn't our life

But in the next you can be sure
I will find you
And in that world
There will not be enough..
Enough space
Enough passion
Enough time

And when the time comes
That Death calls
There I will follow you
To the darkness or to the light
To begin our Love again
And to the next world
And the next
Until time is no more
And all that remains is dust
Dust and Love

P.Frias

1/20/14

It's water and blood
That keeps me alive
It's flesh and bone
That helps me stride

It's dust and ash
That makes me whole
It's muscle and tissue
That helps me stroll

It's tears and pain
That grit my teeth
It's heart and soul
That burn beneath

P.Frias

1/23/14

When I say your name
I can taste it
Salty, sweet decadence
A mouthful of sin

When you look at me
I feel overwhelmed
When my hands touch your thighs
I feel their want

My tongue wants to trace
The scar on your chin
A warm, burning desire
Sets a fire inside me

When I taste your Love
You harden my will
Wet, pulsing petals
Begging for kisses

When I feel you quake
Upon the edge of infinity
Shaking and moaning
I know you are near

Breathless and spent
Our bodies in a heap
When I hear you sigh
The song of my muse

P.Frias

1/27/14

And I sit
Feeling every word
Their sting
Their fire

And I dwell
On your voice
The hollowness of it
The emptiness of it

And I regret
The arrows I let fly
Their precision
Their swiftness

And I sit
Loving you until eternity
The chains of it
The pain of it

P.Frias

2/3/14

Oceans

I feel your oceans rising
Your tides are coming in
The salty waves break
As I pound upon your shores

The sea birds cry
The fog horn bellows
Clouds gather
As the storm brews

Until at last

The heavens pour fourth

And your oceans sing

P.Frias

2/7/14

Ghosts

Choking on memories
My words were not enough
To make you feel me

My thoughts
My dreams
My hands are empty
Clutching at your ghost
That haunts my solitude

The music
The wine
The drugs can't drive you away
From the ruins of my heart

The castle of my soul
Is taken up
By your memory

Every night we made
A bond of blood
A pact of flesh
In occult words
And mystic sayings
They mean nothing
Nothing

I'm left with the immaterial
The intangible

I'm left with ghosts

P.Frias

This ache
This constant, incessant ache
It gnaws
It bites
It rips
It burns
And yet I live
And yet I remember
This fucking ache
This fucking ache
This fucking ache!
I want more
I want less
I want this ache to end
I want the ravens to feast
I want the worm to turn
I don't want any of it
I want it all
Burn and burn and boil
Escape this fate?
No, too late
End this ache
End it

P.Frias

Be here
In this chaos
In this hurricane of us
Be steadfast
That I may cling to you
In this uproar

Be here
In this vastness
In this ocean of passion
Be an island
That I may wash ashore
In this typhoon

Be here
In this earthquake
In this trembling of the soul
Be a constant
That I may find cover
In this rumbling

Be a rock
A mountain
An eternal valley
Be the well
In which I cast my dreams
A book
In which I write my poems
Be the love I need
Be you
As you've always been
For me

P.Frias

And so it was
That a tear had fallen
Without notice
That a life bloomed
Among the weeds
Unseen
A song in the silence
A star dimmed by darkness

And so it is
That a voice should call
And echo
Like a melody in the hall
A beckoning of the soul
Drawing her out
Raising her up
Making her whole

And so it will be
That a light will shine
Making known her secrets
Beautiful and terrifying
The heart of passion
Forged in pain
Tempered by Love
Unyielding
Unwavering
Eternal

P.Frias