I'm stuck in this moment
Saving hope for something
For someone
A flash of longing
A pang of desire
An exhausting want of you
The feel of your skin on mine
The closeness
The heat
Your arms again around me
My hands on your face
This is where we should be
Together
Again

If I cared I would care but I don't so there. Dare me to be set free of just me and accept that life is what it is. A pile of pain, a longing for gain and Never ending want. Even if I had you I would still do all the things I shouldn't. What the hell is wrong with me? I can't keep doing this...

It's a shame that the heart from the start is deceiving yet believing in things spoken. A word, a token, a pact to distract from the real feeling which left me reeling. So what, it's enough that you tried, no, you lied and I died a little that day. I say this way is right but you insist I don't understand yet in my hand is my heart in pieces and parts. What's to know? That you bestow a blow with your rationale that reasons with only you? I heard the words, I heard the claims but I still blame only myself for believing in the illusion you fed me